Ayepro’s UNspoken Words (2006)
Wow! I wrote this in 2006 & I just found it!
On the tip of my tongue is where these words continue to rest, built up pressure from things unsaid has caused a pain deep inside my chest. Wondering why when I’m around you it’s hard for me to speak, it’s like my words are the deepest of secrets and for no reason should ever be leaked. I fight continuously with everything that I have in me trying to bring to light what seems to stay hidden in secrecy, but my efforts are useless against the powers that be. Verbal admittance has never really come too easily you see, so I put my heart on paper hoping that just the same you’d feel me. And that’s exactly what you did but only to a certain extent… with words on a page you just weren’t content, I should’ve realized how much more my spoken words would’ve actually meant. So many opportunities have come and passed me by, I can’t do anything except sit around and ask myself the question why? Why couldn’t I say what it was that I needed to say? How in the world could I let the one who kept me smilin’ just up and slip away? There are so many things that I wanted and needed for you to know, and I can’t for the life of me understand why these words just refused to flow. Baby I miss you, baby I need you, baby I… right there I always seem to get stuck in the face, for some odd reason all the thoughts in my head diappear an somehow get misplaced. Since turning back the hands of time is something that is unable to be done, my chances of redeeming myself are clearly less than one. From my silence there are definitely lessons that I’ve learned, but I realized a little too late, I’ve been skipped and it is no longer my turn… so on the tip of my tongue will remain these unspoken words.
